Update #...? I dunno lol

Hey there!

This post is long overdue, seeing as I was supposed to be posting almost everyday but as you can see that hasn't happen. I've been trying to get a video update on my hair done for weeks but hmph that hasn't been done either. The good thing about it all is that, it's not because I'm lazy or don't have the desire. Because, I do, really I do! It's just that the time management aspect of my life needs some fine tuning. Serious fine tuning,

So, what has the Diva (yeah I still call myself such lol) been up to? Well other than the broken heart episode, I'm still working and interning, I have two internships at the moment and I love them both. If I had the choice to live comfortably and not work at my REAL job I would be doing my internship work full time. I seriously CAN NOT wait to graduate.

Last month I went on a promo tour with an up and coming R&B artist Cherisme promoting her hot single Fly Mamita, check her out tell me what you think. We were in Miami, Daytona, Orlando, Tampa, Tallahasse, Gainesville, Atlanta, it was tres awesome. I really didn't want to come home and back to work. I missed my family yeah naturally but everything else was like 2 fingers up peace out.

Now, I just really need to work on coming out of this shell I seem to have. I'm not shy, really I'm not but for some reason I come off that way with new people. Even when I try hard not to! It's whack, and I have phone anxiety lol I hate talking on the phone with certain people. I'll text and e-mail like no other but when it comes to the phone I have to lock myself in a closet to have the conversation.

Writing I used to think I was a great writer, well that's what people said to me but I don't have that journalistic style that's necessary as a public relations specialist. I have someone in mind to give me lessons BUT financial constraints.

When I got back, my Dad came with me. Can you believe this man hadn't been to the hospital since I was 2 yrs old? That was in 1989 and come to find out he has diabetes and almost passed out in the apt. So, I was taking care of the pops and the momma dukes and playing referree between them, big love hate thing going on.
School starts soon, hopefully I can get some blogs in and I'm going to take pictures, lots and lots of pictures, and get my but back in the gym! That Glady's and Ron's Chicken and Waffles Ohh it was good but boy did it mess up my imaginary abs!

Well TTYL!


♥ Ch3Che

I'm grown

Well sorta, I mean I am still my mommy's child I know that I'll forever be...but I'm really frustrated right now because it feels like the roles have been reversed in this household. Where my mommy has become the child and I the parent. I mean what more can you ask for, you have a 21 year old daughter that doesn't date, has never had a boyfriend, doesn't do drugs, is a virgin, works, goes to school comes home and spends all her spare time with you. Yet whenever I decide out of the blue I want to do something like go out to eat, see a movie and maybe go out dancing I have to worry that my mommy will throw a temper tantrum. I'm tired of putting my youth on hold. I've always had to be the mature one, the level headed, responsible one. I've never been able to live my age I just want to be my dang age! I'm too old, figuratively and I'm about to hit a mid life crisis do something crazy and that's just not me. I'm not sure why she's afraid to let me enjoy my youth. Nothing can nor will ever take her place in my heart, I work as hard as I do to show her how much I admire the woman she is and the sacrifices that she's made for our family. I only hope to be half the woman that she is BUT I want to live for me as well. I really don't understand this dynamic that we have, I can't be a baby for ever, why is it okay for me to have all the responsibilities of a grown woman yet still be treated as if I'm 3 years old. Why am I not able to reminisce about the great night that I just had with friends, instead of blogging because I'm worried about how she feels about me going out and having a great night. Every time mommy doesn't approve Diva packs up her things and runs back under mommy's skirt ever so obedient...but when does it stop? When does the story say "Diva finds herself and lives her life?"

***Yeah this blog is about a journey so it wouldn't be a journey if I didn't share the vulnerable moments as well.***

DiVA 0UT, nite nite

Haitian Flag Day Compa Fest 2008

After receiving the ok from my mother that she would be fine for the weekend, me and my sister continued with out plans to attend the 10th Annual Compa Festival in Miami this past weekend. It was pretty awesome even though half the time I was checking my phone every few seconds to see if my niece was calling to say something was wrong with grand mommy. I finally had to give away my phone to someone else to hold so that I could sit back and enjoy the festivities. I love Haitian culture, I'm so proud of where I come from and even though the country is in turmoil currently I can't help but to think that one day we'll be united as one, without having to sell our country to the British, French, or the US ever.
Every fun trips has its ups and downs, though hanging with the girls was very memorable and I look forward to more outings of the sort, one person in the bunch made things a little un-comfy for me. It's crazy when you're friends with someone for so long and you never see the difference in the way they treat you and anyone else and then some random person divulges that information. That's what happened last year after Compa Fest, my cousin stated that my guy friend was in love with me and I'm thinking no way right? Well I found out yes way and since then our friendship was sort of iffy knowing this. It did get better, until this weekend when he became pissy drunk and decided to text something to my phone. Of course I tried to pretend like I didn't get the text, but then he crossed the line as I was dancing with someone who was trying to get information about my friend not me but my friend, he pushed the guy. Not only does he push the guy but he claims me as his girlfriend then later on as his wife. Then proceeded to lean his unbalanced drunk behind over to try and kiss me landing it on my cheek awfully hard. I thought my braces were going to split the inside of my mouth open.
Other then that little bump in the road the weekend was great. I came home to find my mother was doing well. Think she does better without me and my sister babying her. It's hard not to but we've decided to try.

Pictures from the weekend: I do not normally dress like this, the original outfit had a tshirt under that vest, but my cousins said take it off and voila! NEVER AGAIN! Too many old men hitting on me.My sissy poo who turned the big 3-0 this weekend yet doesn't look a day over 18 she got the good genes lol. She also had the since to not wear heals! My curvaceous cousin striking a pose! Hey! My other cousin is in the group picture but she was surely show stopping as well, she's the one in white next to me. One of my bestest friends (skinny minny) currently living in Louisiana attending Southern University in town for the summer. It was really packed out there at Bicentennial Park I know there had to be more than 40,000 people in attendance this year I couldn't get a good enough picture of the crowd from where I was in the VIP area but it was A LOT of people.

VIP at Haitian events beats all other VIP's I've been in. You get all access back stage to meet all of your favorite artist and Haitian VJs, DJs and comedians. Free food galore and of course drinks. On our last day there I went to visit my uncle and cousin, and was able to meet my second cousin his 3 month old daughter she's so chubby wubby! OK off to take my first Psychology test!

_DiVA 0ut

It's My Birthday!!!

Well it was my birthday February 16th, at 12:01 am (official birth time) I turned 21. The night before some of my family, friends, and co-workers joined me for dinner at PF Changs a Chinese "bistro" that serves gourmet Chinese food. I'm thankful for everyone that came to spend time with me. I think we had about 25+ people which are a lot when a handful had to cancel last minute. Everyone seemed to have a good time, I wish I could have made it a little more intimate with a large group of people usually everyone branches out into groups. Which I know can be awkward since everyone didn't know everyone. SORRY guys it was my first time, Lord willing I'll make sure that everyone can mingle a little more. Not only did we have dinner at PF Changs that night but I came to work and found signs everywhere announcing that I was the birthday girl. I love the one that said, "Wish me a happy birthday or buy me things!" Lol that was tres cute. "The Dayna" made me a red velvet cake which was awesome and I left it at work for others to enjoy but I ended up stopping by work to pick it up. I devoured the rest of my castle cake alone. She also gifted to me a beautiful pair of black earrings which I wore to dinner. The woman has taste. I was excited that my sister came to dinner because we had an argument a week before and she didn't like me very much. Everything has been patched over and healed since and we're back to being best friends I love the gifts that she got me even though just her being there was enough. My sister hooked it up two pair of shoes, belts, accessories, AND a black rose. I am obsessed with black roses, I'm always telling everyone that I don't like flowers and the only flower that would make my heart go pitter patter is a black rose. There isn't really such a thing in actuality the black rose is just a blood red rose, but I'm always saying I want a black rose. I've said it a gazillion times if a man gets me a black rose I just might have to marry him. lol If I ever get married my wedding is going to all white with black and blood red flowers. People think I'm gothic which is not the case I just love the shade black it's beautiful. It makes me happy, I'm happier in darkness then in the light. Okay, I'm getting off subject but I love the rose. It's sitting in a vase by my bed and waking up to in the morning brings me much joy. I also received a gift card to Victoria's Secret; yeah I'm looking forward to shopping there! I only get lotions and body sprays from there but I think I might get a bra or something. My mother gave me my first pair of Victoria Secret underwear when I turned 13 they were nice but Vickie's Secret is to expensive for me Fredrick’s was my preference, it cost less but now that it's not my money buying them I'm definitely going to pick up a pair or two! lol (I'm a college student I'm on a budget!!) Hmm what else did I get? Oh I got perfume JLo 'Love At First Glow' my 18th birthday my friend got me the first one that she came out with, growing up with really bad asthma perfumes and things were kept to a limit and it used to give me headaches. I still wore it though, it was a gift. I was scared to wear this one in the back of my mind I'm thinking I'm going to have a major headache but it actually smells great on me! I'm wearing it now; I actually chose it over Escada, and Dolce. (Hint Hint if you ever want to get me a gift lol).

Okay let's skip a couple of details.

I headed to Miami for my birthday my home city!! Too broke for Disney but hopefully I'll get a chance to see Mickey in March/ April. It was a quick trip because I wasn't feeling it, got in town called friends and you know they all wanted to head to South Beach and get me drunk. Not happening. I just went to one of my old jobs, had my taxes filed, visited family then got right back on the interstate and headed home. Guess for American standards I had a lame birthday because I didn't wake up to a hang over, but I liked it. Even though my best friends are living out of state and couldn't be here to uphold tradition (brownies, and red velvet cake with one; the other cake fighting lol) I feel blessed to have made it 21 years, not many young people get to see the day. Happy 21st Birthday To ME!!!!