I promise I have two heads at sometimes..I say I'm going to do this, and another side of me says "nah uh, we're doing this."

For example, at work yesterday I say I'm going to be passive aggressive..nod and agree, say a lot of "I understand how that could be your perception". If only "we", me and my other self would have just stuck to that plan. I'm going on 22 and it feels like I'm just going through puberty at times, the crazy mood swings people speak about when they're "perioding". Yeah like my word? "Perioding".

Band guy still hasn't called and while one side of me could careless, the other side is being really whack so I had someone change my Myspace password so that I don't know it and keeps my other side from writing him and saying something stupid. Goodbye to Myspace for a while. That's fine with me seeing as before I added him as a friend I had not been using it often at all.

So my one year video still isn't up...pure laziness is the reason...I can't find the song to set it to so I haven't finished it. I finished my first week at the new school and I'm still alive. I think that means it was a good week. I cooked!!! That doesn't happen often, that picture is on my tumblr account. After that there isn't much else new.

Going back to meditating...my mantra for this week: “the best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.”- Ghandi

1 year!!!!

Okay it's not officially one year yet considering the back half of my head wasn't fully installed a year ago today but for the front half of my head it is! -cabbage patch- -butterfly- lol Oh my gurdness it came so fast I can't believe it. You guys have to see the pictures...and you will but not today, soon because I'm not finish yet.

How's everyone doing with their fitness challenge/journey? Well I got back on the ball Dec. 25th that was my Christmas gift to myself I couldn't wait until the new year to start it off again, because that would just be too much of a jinx. For Christmas before everyone woke up I put on my walking clothes and my iPod and started walking, I walked for two miles before the blisters on the heel of my feet said "nah buddy" so my sister had to drive me back home lol! But hey I walked the two miles.-snap- :) I continued to do quick little work outs at home and then Friday 01/02/2009 after picking up my books I went to the gym and did some upper body strength training with weights and some ab work out. Saturday I couldn't make it to the gym because of my schedule but that's another discrepancy in itself, but I wore leg weights to work and actually worked out in the store lol. Call me a hotmess but a girl has to do what she has to do! I did jump squats, goodmornings, lunges and ten push ups at work lol. Yeah I had my coworkers ready to give me advice about good exercises to do. If my ball was big enough I'd bring it to work and use it as my chair today get some core work done lol. Last but not least I started boxing last night!!! Oh my gosh it is the reason for which my body is sore and numb at the same time. This dude had be jump roping for 3 minutes!! I am a big breasted girl even with my 3 sports bras I still had bouncing. Then he had me squatting across the room, sit ups, and crunches, punching the bag. Learned my stance my jab and my stick! He said I was a fast learner and as much as my body hurts right now I can't wait for the next time. I'm walking around the apartment on my tippy toes just waiting to stick and move.

I think what has my body hurting so bad though is because the night before I went out with my sister and one of the besties! We went to this bar to meet up with my co workers. One of them was auditioning girls for a Cayote Ugly night at the bar, where the girls would be dancing on the bar. I decided hey that sounds like I'll get a good laugh from it so I immediately called for a girls night out. My sister wasn't having as much fun with it, especially not when one of the girls decided she was going to jump on the bar with a mini dress showing all the world her "business" so we only stayed for an hour. We left to go to a, well I'm not really sure what it's call in english but it's where you have a live band playing and you can eat or dance. Any how the band was a Haitian band by the name of Gabel, and they have this song "koute kem" which translates to Listen to My Heart. It's so sweet and the original lead vocal has this tone that makes you swoon. But any how, though I like that one song from them at first I didn't want to go in because the place looked so dead and it was a $20 cover but after enough talking outside we pay go in and decide to eat, I took a picture of their mural, didn't think I would be getting on the dance floor. While we're eating with our fingers, (griot is best eaten with fingers lol) and chair dancing acting stupid, a group of guys comes and sits in our area. My back was facing them so I didn't know who they were, later I found out it was the band. My friend kept trying to get me to dance with her so instead I turn around and asked the first guy I saw to dance with her, he smiled and he had a beautiful smile so I continued to be my regular annoying self. I asked his name, he gave me his stage name and then tried to tell me he legally changed it to Flav. I wasn't buying that we spoke about some other random stuff and to my surprise I find out he's actually the new lead singer for the group lol! I felt a bit slow. Here I am at their show and I only really know one of their songs and didn't even know what the members of the band look like lol. Well I asked him to sing my favorite song which they had already sang earlier in their set but guess what they sang it again!! That was so sweet and even though he asked me to stand in front of him as he sang it I was too shy lol and I didn't want my eyes being scratched out by a hater, I stood there for a second to mouth thank you and then proceeded to dance off to the side with my girls, we danced all night and just had fun not taking ourselves as serious as the girls that were half naked on the dance floor. Jesus needed to take the wheel on their wardrobe for real! After their second set he actually came back and sat with us, so my sister and friend proceeded to call him my boy friend for the rest of the night lol. I hugged him when we left and they started up again like you should've given him your number! Oops it's almost time for work. So long story short, we're friends on myspace and this morning when I responded to his message I gave him my number. We'll see if he uses it.:)



Okay so that describes the three pictures. 1st one is my books for school Jan 2nd, Jan 3rd the restaurant slash club for Gabel, & Jan 4th boxing!! Wonder what will be worth taking a picture of today? I won't continue to update the blog with the pictures this site just for those so that you can just flip through them easily. Today starts photo project numero deuce! Happy almost fully one year to me!!!!!

Something else is different...the blogspot address has been officially change to iNaturalDiva.blogspot.com...I'm still DivaLaReine and I'll have to tell you a story about how I got that name one day but not today just know that to get here it's iNatural.blogspot.com now! My picture website is iNaturalDiva.tumblr.com tres simple!

-Diva0ut

i Miss 2008

It seems just like yesterday when it was still 2008 the year my vertical driver's license proclaimed that I would turn 21. So much happened in 2008...okay well maybe not that much but it was a great year! Wasn't it a leap year? That's awesome, 2009 isn't that cool, it's going to be a day short of measuring up to 2008. I mean we spent 366 days together, I didn't even get to say goodbye in the traditional way. I slept as the year left c'est drole. I got my locks installed in 2008, I received my AA degree in 2008.

Yeah okay so 2008 wasn't that great lol but it's 2009 and I can't wait to see what this year has in store for me. Yesterday I picked up my books from school and it was awesome!!! I only had to pay $195.00 that already let's me know that 2009 is going to be a year to save money. Like I still have some of my paycheck left that's great!!!!! Yippe

Back in 2005 I said that in 2009 I would go to California do you think I should? I'm debating about where I want to go to grad school, it's between GA, NY, & CA. I've been to GA, & NY for quick visits, so it would be totally rad<---like that word? *wink* if I actually went to California this year!!! I'm thinking about it no plans for spring break yet, I want to get my passport in case I could leave and go somewhere exotic like Fiji or something wonder how much that would cost in March, and would I need shots? I don't know right now it looks like I maybe taking a family trip to Haiti, but if I do that I can't go where my Mommy is from because she won't relax. Or maybe we could take a cruise, that would be good, you get to see different islands. Hmmm I'm going to look that up.

So school starts Tuesday, and I want to be ooberly excited but I don't know if I will like it, that school is different. It's like stepping back into my high school demographic where I was the only "spot" in the class. Like one of these things isn't like the other one of these things just don't belong :(. We'll we shall see how things pan out. I want to speak to an advisor at the school of communications about doing a Study abroad for the Fall Semester, I heard financial aide would foot the bill so I'm down with that. Wonder what my choices would be as a PR major and Marketing Minor. There's sooooo much I want to see and do this year, I hope I can stop myself from being chicken and do it all.

I'm working on two projects for this year. They're both photo projects. The first one, is that I'm taking a self portrait picture of myself everyday beginning January 5th 2009 and ending January 6th 2010, at the end of it I'll put them in a slide show so that we can see how long my hair grows this year, yay fun isn't it? I know I'm a genius.

Then the second project comes from Yanaboo, she does video blogs on Youtube and she found this photo project online. Where you take a picture a day with something that you did that day. Her video explains it better so watch that! Here is the website link and below are some of the rules and Info:

Why do it?

Taking a photo a day is a big undertaking with big payoffs. Here are just a few reasons why you should consider doing it:

• Imagine being able to look back at any day of your year and recall what you did, who you met, what you learned… (Often we find it hard to remember what we did just yesterday or even last night, let alone a whole year ago!)
  
• Your year-long photo album will be an amazing way to document your travels and accomplishments, your haircuts and relationships. Time moves surprisingly fast.
  
• Taking a photo a day will make you a better photographer. Using your camera every day will help you learn its limits. You will get better at composing your shots, you’ll start to care about lighting, and you’ll become more creative with your photography when you’re forced to come up with something new every single day.
  

Bring Your Camera Everywhere

Make Posting Easy

Vary Your Themes

Tell a Story

Don’t Stop, No Matter What

Post early, post often

Nappy New Year!!!!

There are somethings that went down before the New Year rolled through so I'll update that later but I'm at work so that'll be later the video is enough for now.

Be safe!!

-Diva0Ut

11mths and a Wash Finally!!!

Okay so I finally finished editing well making the video shorter. It's not a tutorial by any means I'm no where near knowledgeable about any type of locks to make a tutorial about something. But because I did something different with this last wash, I thought what the hekk, let's share. Parts are cut out so I tried to place subtitles in where it seems like I'm not making any sense. Like I ever make sense. Any how I like washing my hair withouth rubber bands it felt liberating. My hair can get in a higher ponytail too. Have I told you how much I love my hair?

I don't have any fitness updates because I've been a lazy arse. I got rid of the trainer and stopped going to the gym and working out from home all together. I feel like I've gained weight but the scale seems to be broken because I've lost weight and that's not the business. On a quest for a butt I can't be loosing any weight. I'm going to the gym tomorrow though and I can't wait. I really want to get this boxing on the way to. What else is new? Nothing. Oh I want to marry Will Smith, I saw 7lbs and it was awesome you should go and see it. Its really award worthy he doesn't even look like himself in the movie. It's gurd yall!!!

I went to Miami last Sunday with some friends, haven't done anything like that in a long time and I didn't realize what I was missing so now I have a desire to take more impromtu trips. Like we really didn't do anything but walk around south beach and have dinner a couple times (yeah I'm greedy) and I'm from Miami so it wasn't anything I haven't seen but I guess the company made it fun. Okay let me stop rambling, enjoy the videos!

Swagga Like Mine

LOL...wow I had a moment with my locks this morning as I was getting dressed for work. I felt them brushing against my neck then I just lost it, transformed into a different person...all I can say is that I love the Napptural Me, and it made me do it!

The song is "What A World"- Common...album is great go get it. Get Musiq Soulchild and Kanye West while you're at it.

-DivaOut

Story Time

It has no name, just something that I started writing a few years ago...it's a work in progress and I would like anyone who's willing to help. It's 27 pages long (well what I had in my email box is there's more on my dead computer) and like I said it's a work in progress so it may not read as easy as a novel which is why I'm reaching out for the help. I'm going to attach one page of it and if you would like to read the rest and offer me some tips on how to make it better I would greatly appreciate it.

Before you continue to read, look forward to an upcoming post about washing my locks...it's a video. I"m editing right now and it's final week so it may be a couple days but look out for it. Hope you like the story and offer me your opinon.
It's very explicit...

Its noon and Johari is heading out to lunch, she’s starving but food isn’t what she’s craving. The only thing that can satisfy this craving goes by the name Lamar. It’s been two days since she’d seen or got some good loving from her man. She pulled out her cell and text him. ·Meet me at the condo for lunch in 5· -See you in 5- Just that simple and it was on, Johari hopped into her car and raced home through the lunch time traffic. The moment she arrived at her door and placed the key in the lock she felt Lamar’s hard body pressing up against her. His roaming hands found their way to her breast. Seems they made it there at the same time. The feeling of his hardness pressed against her and his hands slowly popping the buttons off of her blouse, was causing her to loose her mind. Without saying a word Lamar turned to grab the knob of the door and starts walking forward forcing Johari into the house. He shuts the door with his foot. Telling Johari to turn around and face him, the tone of his voice causing her pussy to tremble. She loves when Lamar takes control. Johari turns around her shirt ripped open exposing her red bra and full breast. She bites down on her lips even more aroused by the sight of Lamar in his suit. Her man was wearing the hell out of that suit, she looked down and his erection was shown by a very prominent bulge in his pants. Before she could escape her day dream Lamar tells her to come to him, she takes her time afraid that she might go weak in the knees, finally she’s standing before him. Her breast overflowing from the bra steady rising with every breath that she takes; looking him in the eyes, asking the silent question “What are you about to do to me?” As if to answer the question Lamar lowers to kiss Johari on the cheek letting Johari know that he needs her. She begins trying to remove his belt, and then frantically pulling at his zipper she needs him as well. She needs to feel his long thick solid dick inside of her. Always the calm one Lamar removes Johari’s hands from his zipper. She moans her protest but accepts knowing the wait will be worth every minute. “Take off your clothes Johari.” Lamar says this in a calm but very commanding tone. Her core starts to throb anticipating what’s about to happen. She slowly let’s her blouse drop to the floor, and then she unsnaps her bra setting her heavy breast free. She caresses her nipples. Continuing to caress herself she begins removing her slacks. Lamar is leaning against the door watching each movement Johari makes with pleasure. Once her slacks are removed she’s left standing only in her matching red boy shorts. Lamar walks towards her but instead of meeting him half way she turns and walks away. She heads in the direction of the shower, forcing Lamar to follow her.

Schools Out For Winter!!!

Well no not really but it was just in my head! I can't wait for school to be out I'm so stressed out and I just need my little 2 week vacation from evaluations and grades and papers and test. UGH! This weekend, well tomorrow my locks turn 11mths old so I'm going to treat them to a good deep cleansing wash before I get them retightened on Saturday. I love my hair, it's making me slightly concieted. I'm walking past reflective surfaces and can't help but to do a double take. Hmm what else is going on?

OH my PC died and I have a bunch of papers that I had to transfer to my external hard drive on there so I'm hoping they can save all that stuff :(.

Next topic. PSA (public service announcement). Ladies and gentleman take care of your significant others, if you don't they tend to fall into the hands of people like me. Luckily I'm not a grimey chick, Lord knows how many guys have cried on my shoulders about their no good girlfriends, then proceed to tell me I'm their dream girl. It gets annoying because I'm thinking if so then why are you with this duck? Why am I still single if I'm so great and you keep dating the sucky girls? It never seems to fail that people date the wrong people but oh well it's trial and error. So, basically treat your significant other right, because every one's not as nice as I am. They might steal your boo. Oh and stop trying to change people.

Sorry I had a long conversation last night and I just thought about it now, it was that type of situation so I'm still a bit ticked about it. Okay I'm done rambling, iSleepy!!

My Seinfeld video...a video about nothing!

-DiVA0ut!