11mths and a Wash Finally!!!

Okay so I finally finished editing well making the video shorter. It's not a tutorial by any means I'm no where near knowledgeable about any type of locks to make a tutorial about something. But because I did something different with this last wash, I thought what the hekk, let's share. Parts are cut out so I tried to place subtitles in where it seems like I'm not making any sense. Like I ever make sense. Any how I like washing my hair withouth rubber bands it felt liberating. My hair can get in a higher ponytail too. Have I told you how much I love my hair?

I don't have any fitness updates because I've been a lazy arse. I got rid of the trainer and stopped going to the gym and working out from home all together. I feel like I've gained weight but the scale seems to be broken because I've lost weight and that's not the business. On a quest for a butt I can't be loosing any weight. I'm going to the gym tomorrow though and I can't wait. I really want to get this boxing on the way to. What else is new? Nothing. Oh I want to marry Will Smith, I saw 7lbs and it was awesome you should go and see it. Its really award worthy he doesn't even look like himself in the movie. It's gurd yall!!!

I went to Miami last Sunday with some friends, haven't done anything like that in a long time and I didn't realize what I was missing so now I have a desire to take more impromtu trips. Like we really didn't do anything but walk around south beach and have dinner a couple times (yeah I'm greedy) and I'm from Miami so it wasn't anything I haven't seen but I guess the company made it fun. Okay let me stop rambling, enjoy the videos!

Swagga Like Mine

LOL...wow I had a moment with my locks this morning as I was getting dressed for work. I felt them brushing against my neck then I just lost it, transformed into a different person...all I can say is that I love the Napptural Me, and it made me do it!

The song is "What A World"- Common...album is great go get it. Get Musiq Soulchild and Kanye West while you're at it.

-DivaOut

Story Time

It has no name, just something that I started writing a few years ago...it's a work in progress and I would like anyone who's willing to help. It's 27 pages long (well what I had in my email box is there's more on my dead computer) and like I said it's a work in progress so it may not read as easy as a novel which is why I'm reaching out for the help. I'm going to attach one page of it and if you would like to read the rest and offer me some tips on how to make it better I would greatly appreciate it.

Before you continue to read, look forward to an upcoming post about washing my locks...it's a video. I"m editing right now and it's final week so it may be a couple days but look out for it. Hope you like the story and offer me your opinon.
It's very explicit...

Its noon and Johari is heading out to lunch, she’s starving but food isn’t what she’s craving. The only thing that can satisfy this craving goes by the name Lamar. It’s been two days since she’d seen or got some good loving from her man. She pulled out her cell and text him. ·Meet me at the condo for lunch in 5· -See you in 5- Just that simple and it was on, Johari hopped into her car and raced home through the lunch time traffic. The moment she arrived at her door and placed the key in the lock she felt Lamar’s hard body pressing up against her. His roaming hands found their way to her breast. Seems they made it there at the same time. The feeling of his hardness pressed against her and his hands slowly popping the buttons off of her blouse, was causing her to loose her mind. Without saying a word Lamar turned to grab the knob of the door and starts walking forward forcing Johari into the house. He shuts the door with his foot. Telling Johari to turn around and face him, the tone of his voice causing her pussy to tremble. She loves when Lamar takes control. Johari turns around her shirt ripped open exposing her red bra and full breast. She bites down on her lips even more aroused by the sight of Lamar in his suit. Her man was wearing the hell out of that suit, she looked down and his erection was shown by a very prominent bulge in his pants. Before she could escape her day dream Lamar tells her to come to him, she takes her time afraid that she might go weak in the knees, finally she’s standing before him. Her breast overflowing from the bra steady rising with every breath that she takes; looking him in the eyes, asking the silent question “What are you about to do to me?” As if to answer the question Lamar lowers to kiss Johari on the cheek letting Johari know that he needs her. She begins trying to remove his belt, and then frantically pulling at his zipper she needs him as well. She needs to feel his long thick solid dick inside of her. Always the calm one Lamar removes Johari’s hands from his zipper. She moans her protest but accepts knowing the wait will be worth every minute. “Take off your clothes Johari.” Lamar says this in a calm but very commanding tone. Her core starts to throb anticipating what’s about to happen. She slowly let’s her blouse drop to the floor, and then she unsnaps her bra setting her heavy breast free. She caresses her nipples. Continuing to caress herself she begins removing her slacks. Lamar is leaning against the door watching each movement Johari makes with pleasure. Once her slacks are removed she’s left standing only in her matching red boy shorts. Lamar walks towards her but instead of meeting him half way she turns and walks away. She heads in the direction of the shower, forcing Lamar to follow her.

Schools Out For Winter!!!

Well no not really but it was just in my head! I can't wait for school to be out I'm so stressed out and I just need my little 2 week vacation from evaluations and grades and papers and test. UGH! This weekend, well tomorrow my locks turn 11mths old so I'm going to treat them to a good deep cleansing wash before I get them retightened on Saturday. I love my hair, it's making me slightly concieted. I'm walking past reflective surfaces and can't help but to do a double take. Hmm what else is going on?

OH my PC died and I have a bunch of papers that I had to transfer to my external hard drive on there so I'm hoping they can save all that stuff :(.

Next topic. PSA (public service announcement). Ladies and gentleman take care of your significant others, if you don't they tend to fall into the hands of people like me. Luckily I'm not a grimey chick, Lord knows how many guys have cried on my shoulders about their no good girlfriends, then proceed to tell me I'm their dream girl. It gets annoying because I'm thinking if so then why are you with this duck? Why am I still single if I'm so great and you keep dating the sucky girls? It never seems to fail that people date the wrong people but oh well it's trial and error. So, basically treat your significant other right, because every one's not as nice as I am. They might steal your boo. Oh and stop trying to change people.

Sorry I had a long conversation last night and I just thought about it now, it was that type of situation so I'm still a bit ticked about it. Okay I'm done rambling, iSleepy!!

My Seinfeld video...a video about nothing!

-DiVA0ut!

Ahhhh

I'm so upset right now, I just finished reading A Rich Man's Baby, by Daaimah S. Poole. It's a good book don't get me wrong but she just ended it! No resolution or anything my favorite character goes missing for a year and then all of a sudden the book is at the last page!!!! I wanted to know what happened next. See Brenda Jackson, Rochelle Alers, Adrienne Byrd, Celeste O. Norfleet, man I could go on and on but the point is they wouldn't do this to me. See in their books there is a happily ever after. In this book it just stopped. I'm upset because this was a new release meaning if there is going to be a sequel it may not be until 2009! Yeah it's close but who knows in what month. I had to write her and of course I wasn't ranting like I am now but I had to politely ask when she thought she was going to write the rest of the dang story!! This is the second book I've read this year that didn't have a happily ever after. Gather Together In My Name (Author is a locked sister, Tracy Price-Thompson) almost brought tears to my eyes. If I wasn't in public when I finally turned the last page I think I would have sobbed. I called my friend and we had a conversation filled with cut off sentences as we both could not find the words to share the emotions the book evoked. You should really read this book! It was GURD not good but GURD intentional misspell. See even Trisha R Thomas, didn't play with my emotions like that, though in the beginning her books didn't have a typical romance happy ever after, it had one that I could see as real and she continued with it until she showed how the dysfunctionality (yes it's not a word so what!) of Venus Johnson landed her happiness in the end! Now, Ms. Poole just played with my emotions all over again. UGH!!! I read another one of her books back in high school, Yo Yo Love and I think that one had a happily ever after but I can't remember right now. Ugh I'm so frustrated. Think I'm going to start on my Angela Winters novel since I'm not tired, and my next Brenda Jackson saga is missing a novel so I don't want to skip a character. Grrr

(I donated some of my books to the library)

Yeah I know this has nothing to do with hair but my blog is changing, it's not just about my hair it's about me. This rant, is me! LOL any way yeah my page is still under construction if you view it in Internet explorer it looks busted so hopefully everyone uses Mozilla Firefox, it's much better anyway. I've been too busy to finish the codes for this site and finish it to make it look pretty. Finals week is coming up and I have to make sure I don't end the semester with less than a 3.0..I had an episode with my school when I found out I was missing a credit and no one bothered to tell me the correct information just let me assume that I was good. Good thing I looked at it got everything fixed so that I do graduate and transfer to my new school without a problem in January. I also have video that I need to post but because I've been so busy, I haven't had time to edit it. Hopefully I will soon.

I think I have a date tomorrow, well sort of kind of. He's my homey but he did invite me so technically it's a date but it's not a date. EH, I don't know maybe I should ask him if it's a date. LOL! I've been fretting about what to wear it's a bridal shower and I haven't been to one of those yet. Am I supposed to get the bride a gift too? Shoot I'm broke, maybe I'll get her a card or something. Other than that I'll just offer her some prayer! Okay I'm done with this now. Tomorrow is my first Saturday off and I have A LOT to get done in one day.

-DiVA Out Yall!

Can I Take a Picture of You for my Blog?

Introducing Jaime and Fab (Click photo to enlarge)

This did start as a hair blog so it would only be right to talk about hair from time to time! Yesterday I did the craziest thing... me and my sister are shopping for the EaglePalooza concert last night and out of the corner of my eye I spy locks. Of course my camera is always in my bag so I'm like:

Me: I want a picture for my blog!!!
Sis: you're crazy leave those people alone!

But nope not me. I walk up to complete strangers and ask to take pictures of their locks for my blog. They were nice enough to let me and I was so excited that I didn't really interview them and right now I'm sad that all I have to share with you all is this one picture. I really really wish I got to ask them questions. I did give them my blog address so I REALLY hope they read this so that they can e-mail me and hopefully I can ask them:

How long have you been growing your locks?
What method did you use? Why did you decide to lock?
What type of attention do you recieve due to your locks?

I have other questions too so Fab and Jaime please email me so that I can do right by your locks and showcase them correctly. They are beautiful and I loved them and I want more pictures of them!!

The blog is still under renovations, blogspot rejects all the codes I use. I'm editing a video from the concert last night so look forward to that, it probably won't go up until next week. Bye! Have a great weekend!

-DiVA0UT

Under Construction

my page is going through some dramatic changes. i'm trying to figure out this whole html/css coding so that my page reflects more of my style. so bare with me. i'm switching to one post view at a time so for anyone new coming to my blog just go back to old post to view the madness from before. i may switch to having my page hosted by mac since i mean i am paying for iMac or Me whatever they want to call it this year. off to school i go this morning, i really don't feel like going. i gave up on this semester a while back not good, but it's the truth. i turned in my term paper Tuesday, hope i did well. i won concert tickets!! i'm going to see Flo-Rida and Lloyd perform at my new school tomorrow, so i need to make sure to pick up those tickets today. orientation for the new school tomorrow morning...i feel like here we go again. new people, new school, not thrilled...i just want my BA already. i'm so mopey think i need to get back in the gym pronto lol get those endorphins back....guess there's underlying reasons to why i'm such an emo on this subject right now but that's another post. just wanted to say my page shall be funky looking for a little while. peace -diva0ut!

tagged and other randomness

I shouldn't be blogging right now, what I should be doing is writing my term paper for history. But I figure I've stayed away a full 13days on a quest to get back on the ball and it's only fair that I take a little break right? Well I was tagged last month but I never know what to say about myself really so I had to sit back and think about it. Then I got back a few grades in school and I realized that I was in I don't care mode with some things, so I had to get back on the ball with school...I'm not where I normally am but I think I can salvage a 3.0 for my last semester at this school. This post may be a bit long because I have some catching up to do (no video this time), but let me go ahead and get my tagged items out of the way first.
Okay so I've been tagged again yay!! It makes me feel all tingly inside because that means people actually read my blog and have a vested interest!!

Here are the rules:
1. Link to the person that tagged you..... 2. Post the rules on your blog 3. Share 6 non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself that have not been shared already 4.Tag 6 others.

This time around I've been tagged by: new2locs

-I've recently realized that I was on the wrong path to doing what I really want to do with my life and decided, it's actually okay...when I did that things finally began to fall into place.

-I gave my mother relationship advice when I was four, she loves telling this story. Basically one night I wake up as I hear my dad sneaking back in, I slept in the same room as my parents for a long time! But any how I'm still sleepy rubbing my eyes and in my infinite knowledge I say "Leave that fool heifer" lol jk, but seriously she said I asked why she was putting her self through the back and forth and that she should just leave him. My dads jaw hit the floor and I turned my little tushy over and went back to sleep! Not for the BS at an early age!!

-I'm getting a real room of my own soon- Long story

-I closed the door on someone that I've been back and forth with for a long time and I'm proud that I could do it.

-I voted for the first time this year. (Making this my 3rd historical event that I've lived through and I still haven't had a full reaction to Obama becoming our 44th President.)

-I write romance/erotica stories. (Wanna read one?)

I am tagging....

++Moke- The Secret's Lie With In
++Tosh- On The Road to Queendom
++Cassidy- Growing Up Loving the Curls God Gave Them
++Jocey- She changes her blog name to much!
++Teenz- Mentally Disturbed
++Someone who hasn't been tagged, you're it!!


Okay back to what's been going on in the past 13 days. Well the most important topic is that I am now 10mths old, well my locks are lol. I love my hair I love that if I'm tired I don't have to worry about wrapping my hair I can just plop right under the covers, wake up the next day shake and just go! Who wouldn't want this freedom? I haven't taken much pictures because eh, I don't know why just haven't been in a picture taking mode I guess. I have 3 sets of double headed locks not two, I said that in my last video that I had two but it's actually three. Otherwise my hair is behaving, and I'm loving minute of it, can't wait to hit the 1 year mark and see the crazy growth that so many people speak of.

Okay so that happened and hmm what else oh I have been in a long battle with my gym so long and draining that I couldn't even summon enough energy to get my behind to the gym these last 6days. So this is what happened:

I signed up at a rate for my trainer and was told I would get a certain amount of free sessions, two weeks into my contract I find out they left out the free sessions because I was getting a discount. Well honey that's not what we discussed, and rather than them honoring the deal they tried to stick it to me and make me pay more! What do I look like boo boo the fool? I don't think so I don't have money to waste. Long story short I got them to let me out of my contract without having to pay the 500+ dollar amount with a full refund. They didn't want to mess with me no sir-e bobster! Now, I have another problem because it seems they are not to be trusted with my account information some funny stuff has been going down. So, I'm in search of a new trainer one that doesn't come with a contract preferably. I have a potential candidate, remember Mr. Sexy that I spoke about like 2 videos ago the one that came into my store and made my cheeks turn purple. Well turns out that he was a trainer at one point in time and he's offered to help me out. -giggle- so I'll keep you all update on that as I keep you updated on my fitness journey. I'll head to the gym for the first time in 7days tomorrow. Oh I may take up boxing as well a guy at the gym offered to show me how for free. Yay!! I have the gloves and what nots but I just need to figure in the time to go and learn.

Okay what's next? Do you have people in your life that are back and forth a lot? I do, well it's just one person and I realized it's too childish I'm not down for it especially not for someone I haven't met before. I actually spoke quickly about him in my last tagged posting. But any way so we close the door because he asked me to not speak to him again and when I say okay fine have a good life and mean it he wants to play take backs a few weeks later. I'm 21 and trying to find myself I don't have time for any wishywashy people that refuse to reveal themselves the aura of mystery has vanished and if I see that you're taking away more than you're adding to my life then you have to go. So, when he contacted me last week on some guess who, I didn't know who he was because I erased all his contact information I was not amused and let him know just that. Take that ish somewhere go make real life friends, and real life girlfriends too! I really just needed to vent about that.

Next, last night we went out to a different club and boy oh boy I can't wait to get my BA and move out of this town again! But yeah those type of people at the club reminded me of that. They were a bunch of how would an investment of my time in you benefit me type people and it made me stand back and smile for a second because I think I'm going to be alright. I'm not wasting time just saying what I'm going to do but I'm actually moving forward and doing it. I had my little moment of doubt where I felt like STOP what am I doing am I going to be one of those people stuck in a career because it pays much and I just want to move out the hood? Yeah I switched lanes and I'm happy. I met another guy too, I'm not sure whats going on with that he seems like a nice guy but he curses a lot and I find it so unattractive. I'm not rushing to find a relationship I've been pushing back advances from people that just want to "get some" and although when my girlfriends call me about their love life I wonder what would it be like. I'm okay, I'm learning to love me first so I wont have to put up with the BS. I think a lot of young women don't know their worth when they enter these relationships and they stay in them just for the sake of being able to say they have someone. I guess with Mr.Wishy Washy that's what made me allow the back and forth, I wanted to feel like I was desired by someone of the opposite sex even if that person wasn't real. I needed outside validation and closing that door means I don't need it anymore. I define my worth, I validate myself, and even if my first relationship doesn't happen until I'm thirty, I'm okay with that. I've decided I'm worth too much to settle. I'm going places and I don't have time to baby sit a little boy with a "grown man complex". I want to do my own thing and look at my significant other and have pride and admiration for who he is and what he stands for. I love the way Michelle Obama looks at her husband, I don't know much about their personal lives but they look like what a man a woman should be to each other, equilibrium, the perfect compliment, the missing rib!

Okay I must stop now because my butt hurts and I realize I smell like club atmosphere. Yuck! A lot more has happened but I ramble too much and don't want to bore you. This collage of pictures is just me giving the yuck face to people at the club, random goofyness after the club.

-DiVA Out!!

Stlying it Up @ 9mths

I love the free style look believe me I do, but through boredom while trying to study my hands found their way into my hair then next thing I know I wake up with my hair styled lol! Just a simple braid out that has seem to have worked magic with my locks. I see growth like "wow" and it's making me vain I can't help but to stop and take a peek whenever I stop by a reflective surface. It's not my fault really it's the hair, it just takes over! This past week it's been doing weird things like making my hands run through it, it's like their having a love fest...my hands and my hair are just too much. LOL My hair has another trick that it can do, and I really can't believe this but rather then tell you, I thought I'd just show you!! Isn't it amazing?!?! I'm almost two months away from having my hair locked for a full year and I just keep thinking like wow, time is really flying by. Here are the pictures of what I did to my hair for the braidout, it's still crinkly but flat. It almost feel as if my hair was relaxed or something maybe from the braidout? Has this happened to anyone where your locks seem to have been stretched thin? I know they'll plump up once I wash them in a few days but for now they feel different. It may also feel that way because my parts are still visible. How dare my hair prove me wrong. Normally the parts are non existent relatively soon but this time they're still showing. Probably again because of the braidout. I like fullness so they need to go ahead and plump back up and do wild things rather than just laying their calmly. Locks have given me an all new form of confidence I actually wore my hair braided back like that to work. Yes I let the five head show y'all and I had no shame in my game. Something about these sister locks that has a girl feeling regal. I'm so proud of my pony tail you guys, this is how I'm going to wear it to work out so I don't have sweaty locks in my eyes. I've been working out and it's killing me not taking pictures to show you all the results but I'm sticking to the 3mths thing. I'm working out atleast 3 times a week and I find that I enjoy going. I'm thinking about taking on some boxing as well one of the guys at the gym offered to train me for free. Now, I just need to find the time to get there when he's able to train me. I'm going to try yoga at the gymt this coming Tuesday night I figure it will keep me out of the house waiting to hear who's the next President. Have you all voted? Well you should no matter which way you choose to vote (unless it's McCain, lol JK) I've been tagged again so now I have to go and think about six interesting things to write about lol oh jeez. Well it's getting close to the time for me to start work so I'm going to leave you all with this and I'll write my 6 things in another post.

(2nd collage bottom row left is braid out with rollers, bottom row far right is after I'd taken out the braids going straight back. top is just to show you the pre braid out look and it's must me lounging around the apt thinking wow my locks are lol *giggle*)

My locked homie Mely B also had a proud moment with her traditional locks recently she texted me yesterday: "Today I had an amazing moment that I want to share with someone who would understand where my joy is coming from....So today I went to get my hair done and after she washes my hair she alwasy puts me under the dryer. Today when I went under the dryer my drads were too long for me to sit under the dryer. She had to put a cap on my head so all the dread would be able to fit under the drying. I almost cried because I've watched this happen to other and dreamed of when that day would come for me.. Some would call it stupid but for us it's a stepping stone on our way to natural beauty :)"- Mely B
I just had to share her text with you guys because I know that you all will understand.

-DiVA0ut

7th Retightening

This is two days late it's long YouTube rejected the first for being too long so there are two parts. LOL this video is about a boy well partially, and my locks of course. My locks are 9mths old in this video and this is after my seventh re tightening. Music: Ne-Yo; She Got Her Own (Video 1) Rihanna; Sell Me Candy (Video2)

"Insert Title Here"

YouTube took forever to upload this video, this was actually supposed to be posted last night 10/19/2008.

So, My Brother Almost Died!

The original thought for my post tonight was about me not taking down the lockhawk. But, my sister and I just came back from picking up my brother. Everyday he goes to this house where a bunch of guys play dominoes for money. Haitian men with nothing to do. I'm always asking him why he can't stay his behind at home because I hate that neighborhood but it's what he does, when he's in town. So, he calls us to pick him up all calm like it's a regular night. I mean we do it everyday. We pull up and we see those "flashing lights" first thing that comes to my mind is "Oh my goodness, INS is deporting them." Most of the people there are not here legally. Then we see my brother walking to the car so we're like "yes he got away." Not knowing that he just got away from a bullet! He tells us when he gets into the car two people got shot, we're like "word". Then he goes into detail and we realize that two people in the same room as him were shot. He's telling the story about how the guys came in to rob them and how they tried to fight them off and his friends getting shot in the process, but it doesn't sink in. We're like "man you have 9 lives, you need to get on your knees and pray tonight, and you're going to church in the morning to testify". But it didn't really hit me the severity of the situation like you could have received a call saying your brother has just been shot; not until I follow him into the apartment and saw the speck of blood on his shirt, so small but it hit SO HARD.

Right now my prayers go out to the two men that were shot, and I'm fighting the urge to beat my big brother up because I'm happy that he's safe and scared that the situation could have had a totally different ending.

This is why I want to get my education, and make something of myself to get me and my family far, far, away from this %*&^(*&*& situations. I hope those guys are caught before they hurt someone else loved ones.

Randomness...& LockHawk

Yeah this post started off as a post about nothing and then my specialness went into full affect which resulted in the second video. :) I really don't drink...I just wanted to finally use my I.D. since I am 21 and all to purchase alcohol, and that stuff is like $5 dollars so I'm drinking it! (If you drink do it responsibly.) The lockhawk shall perish in the A.M. but for now I think I'll try to reign in all this craziness and hit the sheets. I'm really a shy person... :-D LOL subscribe to my YouTube channel please, think I'm starting to like this thing. *giggle*

Can't Sleep

This workout thing is messing with my sleep! I woke up at 5 am for the past 4 days in a row. Just laying up in the bed with no where to go, guess my body is used to that whole working out at 6 am so it's trying to get me up to eat in time. Well this body better re adjust because I'm not going to the gym that early anymore. I stopped working out with my guy friend because he lives too far, need to save my gas money. I also have a personal trainer now which I didn't tell him..but there isn't any point in paying for a membership that I won't be using and I wasn't using it much when I was working out with him. So, I'm going to workout before work, which is 9am-ish. The only thing I'll do at 6 am is take a walk with my sister and neighbor, which so far will only be twice a week. I have my training session tomorrow that trainer better not kill me...who am I kidding.

Apple gets on my nerves they just came out with a new Macbook! Ugh, and it's 200 cheaper then what I paid. $200 goes a long way. I don't regret getting my laptop when I did because it's helping me with school and it's my favorite color, all black...which the new MacBook isn't.

My hair needs a retightening but I had to cancel...I didn't budget right this month so I'm going to go my first 8 weeks without a retightening. I don't think I like it very much, I have a lock that has fully slipped out and my fingers get caught in my hair. I hope my hair isn't matting I took my time seperating them one by one and it doesn't seem that any of them are stuck together but I would have more piece of mind if I had a retightening. Do you ever get wierd desires to take a curling iron to your locks? Well I have and it's crazy because we don't have a curling iron and I hate the smell of burnt hair but here I am wanting to take some heat to these babies. I promise I get crazy when PMS strikes. Well this post wasn't really about anything I'm just killing sometime so that I can safely walk out of this room without being yelled at for waking someone else up before six.

4 Mile Walk

My first time walking I only made it 1.42 miles before I came crawling home tired, huffing and puffing. Today was sooooo different, my breathing is normal and I don't even feel sore, YET! lol I think the difference was that I had people walking with me, my sister and my neighbor joined in on my fitness journey. Yesterday my neighbor came over to tell us that she ordered a samba video and thought we could all do it together once it arrived and my sister told them how I was occasionally walking in the mornings and right away my neighbor said give her a ring in the morning she wanted to go too. My sister who went to the gym with me on Thursday and has been complaining about being sore ALL WEEKEND even got in on the action and we all set out this morning to do a mile walk. Well a mile turned into 2, then 3, and 4! It felt like turning back to get to the car would be further so we just kept following the path point out things on the way. Occasionally jogging to get away from the bugs, I don't do bugs lol...I'm like: "they're going to nest in my locks!!". We walked and walked until we were on the road that led to our apartments we'd made it that far but then the sun came out and we decided maybe a lift wouldn't hurt so we called someone to meet us, we jogged to the stop sign but the jog soon turned into a dash when I heard a dog barking and saw that the gate was open and there was no chain!! Yeah I don't play with dogs either...that really got my heart going because I ran towards the stopped car so fast!! Guess the dog was the little push we all needed because it forced them to keep up with my wild running. We made it!!! 4 miles on our first try and we're looking forward to Thursday morning seeing if we can add yet another mile. Just as much as I'm looking forward to breakfast and a shower.

_DiVA 0UT!!

I DON'T Want Kids!!!

I mean I do but dang, I don't know if I can be a mother. Especially not to more than one child. Why you ask, well let me tell you::

So yesterday my sister calls me while I'm at work and tells me that my nephew that I haven't seen in months is over at the apartment. I immediately get excited because I know his birthday is Monday and because his mother and me (my other sister) are not "tight" I don't go to her house. That part is a long story but back to the real story...okay so I become immediately excited thinking out loud we can have a movie night slash slumber party. I can pick up my other two nephews and my niece was already at the apartment, slide through get some pizza. (Wallie, Kung Fu Panda, Iron Man) The nephew that I rarely see is going to be 3 on Monday, than the other three which are from my oldest sister are 2, 6, and a soon to be 9 years old.

Okay so I get them all to the house they're all excited chanting movie night, well the two oldest. The younger ones are sneaking off on a mission to mess something up! Finally we get them all on a blanket in front of the TV, serve the pizza and we start Kung Fu Panda. They were all good for the first 5 minutes of the movie before the youngest two lost focus and decide they want to play something else, occasionally turning back saying "ahh movie" (cute but annoying) The mini me of the two youngest is continually asking for "waaaaater" which scares me because he refuses to wear pull ups and I'm thinking he's going to just let it rip every where. (He made me aware that he used the potty and it was so cute watching the lil thing go, I didn't even know he was being potty trained) The oldest two are annoyed I'm ready to pull out my hair and my sister is laughing at me. I decided to just split them up the youngest is the ring leader anyway. That works until the nephew I rarely see, his mother comes to pick him up. She had no idea that we were having a slumber party slash movie night because we don't speak to her so she comes in and of course only the kids are speaking to her, she takes her son tells him to say good bye and my lil' bourgeoisie niece gets up and leaves too. (That's also another story) Okay so now I only have two that should be easier right? No, it wasn't finally we tired my youngest nephew out get him to sleep, my oldest sister doesn't have her kids in bed until 1 am and I don't play none of that so 10 pm was a bonus for my 6 year old nephew, I have him get ready for bed and we all go to sleep. Mind you I'm sore as hekk from working out, back to back the past three days. The floor is not doing nothing for me right now and the living room is freezing for some strange reason, I want to be in a dang bed not on the floor! Fast forward: Wake up in the morning I ask what's for breakfast? They choose peanut butter sammiches, apple sauce and a juice box. Kewl I can do that but the mini me did not want to sit down and eat! I had to follow him around taking things out of his hand wiping peanut butter off of the couch than finally when he sat down to eat the lil boy throws up on me!!!!!! (crying) I don't do throw up! But any how I catch it in my hands (yuck) some landing on my feet. Calmly I dump it out wash my hands and take him to the bathroom to shower him. At this point I'm chanting I don't want kids my sister is laughing, he finds it funny and I just want to curl up in a corner and cry. They have short attention spans, if the TV is on it's like they have no souls.My oldest nephew tries to do that nasty speed bath so I have to scrub him down to make sure he's actually clean..not trying to take him home to his parents with grime. My sister needs to get her kids a pedicure too because the toes were NOT the business...ewww kids and dirt. I can't have hyper active kids! I see why my oldest sister stays cleaning because she has all three of those rugrats over night everyday. I now understand why they were all excited for me to take them all at once. Never again, I'm going to stick to the 1 or 2 at a time.

Okay in other news, I know I was supposed to post up 1 month update pictures but I decided against it. I'm going to do it at 3 month intervals. I'm still working out; Thursday with the trainer was fun but hard. I had her dying laughing and she had me dying working. We had fun, the session was supposed to be 45 minutes it lasted 2 hrs. She told me that her managers were speaking sideways about her working out with me so long but eh oh well it's because of her I finally decided to sign up and get a trainer! So I got all of my measurements done and this coming week probably Wednesday I'll meet with a trainer. I think my trainer is going to be the brother of the Denver Bronco's kicker forgot his first name but the last name is Prater. They came into my job and he saw my training journal and asked who my trainer was, when I said I hadn't chosen one yet he's like I'm going to be your trainer most likely. Then his mother and brother scared the hekk out of me saying how he trains hard. AHAHAHAHAHAH. Okay it's time to take these rug rats and my mommy to church, I feel bad for them because I forgot vital pieces to their outfits LOL I told yall I am no fashionista. From head to ankles they look okay but their feet look a bit rough, with the crocs. I hate crocs. Oh well the Lord says come as you are!

fitness stats:

Body fat%: 22.2%

Weight: 125 lbs

Neck: 14 in

Chest: 25.5 in

Shoulders: 39.5

Waist: 30.5

Hips: 35

Bicep R: 11

Bicep L: 11

Thigh R: 20

Thigh L: 19.5

Calf R: 13

Calf L: 13

9mths Lock Update

After sitting on the phone with apple care found out the Mac won't support movies from my camera until I get some sort of software to convert them to MPEG-4 format. So, I wasn't able to edit my faux pas: 800 points, not dollars! LOL I'm horrible with spelling and things like that because my brain is just a jumbled mess of thoughts and often times I click post before I edit. You have been warned lol...I'm not slow just hyper active :D!

On another subject, my brother broke my car door handle!! That monkey sucker grrrrr why I outta!! No you may continue to your regularly scheduled program.

I did it I did it

I did my second circuit training workout and I am so excited. On Friday I was only able to complete 3 sets of 20 on a 4 station circuit, and I was only able to do 15 minutes on a treadmill doing different speed intervals. I walked out of there feeling like AHHHHHHH. This time however I was able to get through the full 30 minute cardio training on the elliptical. Now, the first time I tried the elliptical was with my co worker at my gym we tried doing 15 minutes on the bikes and 15 on the elliptical, I only got through 7 minutes on that dern elliptical so I'm hekka excited about getting through a full 30 MINUTES!!! Within  only a weeks time that is a HUGE improvement at least I think. Not only was I able to get with it on the cardio but I did 4 sets of 20 on a 5 station circuit. What who's bad?!?! LOL I was able to walk out the gym this time. I'm walking to the machine to do a new rep and this is what happened:

D: Why'd you put the weights away?

Trainer: You're done.

D:What already?

T: Yeah you completed 4 sets, Friday you did 3.

D: (confusion on my face) Word, so we're done?

T: Yes see you Tuesday at 6 am.

D: But I'm not even tired.

LOL! Wow I was so excited I had to record that feeling.  I'm already seeing changes and I can't wait to take the 1 month compared to the beginning pictures. Well time to get my sweat stinky behind into the shower so I can get ready for work. I'll holla

DiVA0UT

Tongue that ear

LOL, this is me and my coworker aka "the man of my dreams" lol acting goofy at work. I just wanted to post it since it shows my pigtails lol everyone thought it was cute, you can't really see I have two pony tails in this edit of the photo because I photoshopped it to make it look like something out of a comic book my facial expression was one at least. (click for original)

I'm grown

Well sorta, I mean I am still my mommy's child I know that I'll forever be...but I'm really frustrated right now because it feels like the roles have been reversed in this household. Where my mommy has become the child and I the parent. I mean what more can you ask for, you have a 21 year old daughter that doesn't date, has never had a boyfriend, doesn't do drugs, is a virgin, works, goes to school comes home and spends all her spare time with you. Yet whenever I decide out of the blue I want to do something like go out to eat, see a movie and maybe go out dancing I have to worry that my mommy will throw a temper tantrum. I'm tired of putting my youth on hold. I've always had to be the mature one, the level headed, responsible one. I've never been able to live my age I just want to be my dang age! I'm too old, figuratively and I'm about to hit a mid life crisis do something crazy and that's just not me. I'm not sure why she's afraid to let me enjoy my youth. Nothing can nor will ever take her place in my heart, I work as hard as I do to show her how much I admire the woman she is and the sacrifices that she's made for our family. I only hope to be half the woman that she is BUT I want to live for me as well. I really don't understand this dynamic that we have, I can't be a baby for ever, why is it okay for me to have all the responsibilities of a grown woman yet still be treated as if I'm 3 years old. Why am I not able to reminisce about the great night that I just had with friends, instead of blogging because I'm worried about how she feels about me going out and having a great night. Every time mommy doesn't approve Diva packs up her things and runs back under mommy's skirt ever so obedient...but when does it stop? When does the story say "Diva finds herself and lives her life?"

***Yeah this blog is about a journey so it wouldn't be a journey if I didn't share the vulnerable moments as well.***

DiVA 0UT, nite nite

Yoga Update

Did I make it through the 40 minute work out? No, I didn't even get to do one minute of it, my brother is in town taking over the living room so I couldn't disturb him. (Really, he'd beat me up) When I came home from work the  program was no longer there, it only saved it for 24hrs. I'm going to find some beginner yoga baby steps, lol I see some A.M yoga maybe that's more calm, it's been a while so I guess I need to take it slow. I'm screening yoga episodes my brother and sister are laughing at me, screw them!  I will not be defeated, again baby steps. I'm going to post some pictures of me doing poses at a friends house back in 2006. I did it before I'm going to do it again, shoot!

I'm meeting with a friend at 6 am to work out so that I can learn proper form for weight lifting, I don't want to hurt myself trying to get fit that's not t

he goal at all.  I won't be experimenting with the yoga tonight other than some meditation to calm my anxiety right now. I have a midterm in my logics course tomorrow. I get test anxiety, it's like I psyche myself out. This is what was going through my mind an hour ago:

 

Inner voice: What if you get something simple wrong, the professor is going to be grading the paper like, dang she's not taking my course seriously.

 Diva to inner voice: Nah, he knows I'm a hard worker.

 

IV: Well he's going to be wondering why you're not seriously working hard to learn his material. You must not be smart.

 

D: I am, but I'm under a lot of stress...test are not my forte.

 

IV: He don't care about your stress he's just wondering why you missed all these questions.

 

D: I'm not going to miss a lot of questions, I'm going to do well.

 

IV: You better, because we don't fail.

 

D: We sure don't!

 

Yeah lol now, everyone is thinking I'm crazy. Don't act like you don't have conversations with yourself internally. (LMBO)

 

Ugh I have an orthodontist appointment, normally I binge eat because my mouth is going to be sore for like 3 days, but won't that defeat the purpose of this exercise stuff? Guess I need to stop at the grocery store in the morning get some mashed potatoes and soup.

 Nite nite!

Let's Try Something New

Grrr, it took me forever to upload this but finally it's up even though it's now going to be broadcast through youtube rather than blogger. Soon the world will know my name....mwahahah, not quite but enjoy a new aspect of my musing.

Video introduction: I almost got hit by a semi truck driving home from work Monday night so I'm still afraid of driving on the highway at night when it's raining and it's been raining quite a bit so this is me at home after trying to do yoga using the video on demand service through my cable provider. 

-DiVA0Ut

What's Happening?

Guess where I just came from? If you guess the gym then ding ding ding

you are correct. You win 50 push ups get to it!! LOL One of my co-workers finally signed up for the gym and he asked me to work out with him today so that's what we did, even though the plan was to work out this morning we went after work. My arms are sore, but I've been neglecting the blog so I decided to go ahead and tuff it out.

I wish I could say yeah I've been killing it at the gym but see what had happened was...Okay, so after being worked until it hurt I tried going back the next day but Hurricane Ike had other plans with all the rain that it was giving that day so I skipped death and decided I would work out Wednesday. I don't know what happened but I never made it back to the gym. I didn't make it back until the 15th...I took a morning power walk and I made it 1.42 miles ended with a few lunges had breakfast showered than headed to work. I had plans to attend the gym after work but then I found out that someone passed away AT THE GYM and the gym would be closing temporarily. That was kind of scary so I just went home. I wasn't able to work out the next day because of school but I did work out again after that I just can't remember when. Than last week Friday morning I did my abs and one of the gym people helped me with the some excersices. He worked me out well but I didn't feel anything other than an adrenaline rush, than two days later it hit me and I felt like someone beat the mess out of my stomach. I was going to go back but that evil curse of womanhood reared it's nasty little head and I'm not quite cool with going to the gym during that time of the month yet. So I'd been working out at home until she went bye, bye. So I worked out at home until today. It's been a slow start for me but I'm trying to keep myself motivated, without a trainer, I don't have that type of money right now. I'm going to use the gym resources for free as long as I can maybe I'll get to the point where I won't need a trainer, maybe. There are a lot of online work out plans that I've been bookmarking and what I've done so far is to try and use every machine at the gym at least once by looking at the diagrams so that way I can familiarize myself with the place. It's scary being in there with all these experienced people. Shoot makes you want to just curl up in a corner and do the moves everyone had to learn in gym class and you know its fool proof.

In other news I washed my hair Thursday lol, I'm not good with washing my hair but with this new work out thingy I can't do the every two months thing. I'm going to have to move it up at least to every month. I hate washing my own hair!!! I rather have someone else do it the only good thing about washing my hair is seeing the length afterwards. So, I washed my hair and tried to do a roller set with perm rollers because I was going to Miami the next day and I was going to be on my old college campus I wanted to try something new. I suck with rollers but I guess it came out okay. It looked like old lady hair to me a bit too formal so I guess I'm going to stick to just simple braidouts until I get a bit more length. I kept pulling at it to relax the curls.

I'm coming up on my 9ths and my hair is really growing. I have to stop myself from smacking my back thinking there is a fly or something. It's great :) my cousin called me a few days ago after I'd text her a picture of my hair and she said she wanted to get her hair in sisterlocks. She has relaxed hair, so I had to give her some info because she thought it was something I'd done on my own. Chile boo me DIY? Not yet at least. Think she should look around some more before she decides to lock.

Hmmm...what else is there?

School is going great...I realized how much I missed being on a university campus when I went back to Miami so I'm looking forward to the spring semester, I want to live a real college student life get the full experience. Working full time will not rob me of the experience. I won't let it. That's about it I'm going to end this post here so that I can get some rest if I decide I'm going to work out before work tomorrow. I'll update my 1mths workout pics on the 8th.

-DiVA0Ut!!